Today is September 18, a day to rest in God's provision.
Perhaps I will pick up blogging again....perhaps not. I wish I would post more faithfully because I so enjoy reading my old posts and seeing God at work in my life. At any rate, I remembered I had a blog, had some time, and had something I felt was worth posting.
Recently, I started my first year of teaching! Woah! What a journey I have started. College, try as it might, most definitely cannot prepare you for what it takes. Sure, I learned how to lesson plan and how to deliver a good lesson, but there is SO much more to teaching. There are so many more responsibilities when you are the teacher in a classroom. I feel as if my workload never shrinks, no matter how many hours I spend checking things off my never ending to-do list. As much as I truly love my job, the pressure is enormous. Plus, there are the usual demands of starting out on a new path, getting used to a new job, and being in a new world. Through all of this, I have been feeling my inadequacy. It is in times like these that I am in awe of my God. No words can express how thankful I am for how big and mighty and powerful He is. Right now, He is teaching me to rely on Him and to rest in Him. As much as I wish the stress would go away, I am grateful for it. Yes, I know, that sounds like a contradiction, but if I didn't have it, I wouldnt be growing so close to my Heavenly Father. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me and I know it. . .He keeps that promise and he has given me the endurance and ability to do what needs to be done and to do it well. "But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint." (Isaiah 40:31) Often I feel anxious, but He gives me the peace that passes understanding. During this time, I have grown so much in my love for my Lord. He has shown me that He is always faithful. Praise Him!
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Future Grace
Today is July 9, a day to trust in future grace.
Oh look, I have a blog. Funny, I tend to forget about my blogs. In 2007, I began one for a school project but only posted for a grade. Later on, I had one for work, but I forgot all about that and never finished whatever it was that I was supposed to blog about on it. Last year, I started this blog, posted twice, and...surprise, let it collect digital dust. Having completed school, I have not had a writing requirement in a several months. But, I love writing. Now that I am free to write on topics of my choice, I decided to log some of my contemplative thoughts again. I am not kidding myself, I doubt anyone on the world wide web really cares to read my ramblings, but that is not why I am writing. By the time I wake up tomorrow morning, I may once again forget that I have virtual document. However, it was encouraging to see my posts of over a year ago and to reflect on what God was doing in my life then, what He has done since then, and what He is doing now in my life. In a way, this is tracking my growth. As a Christian, I certainly hope that I am maturing and developing spiritually. It is entirely too easy to become complacent and become stagnant. All that rambling to say. . .I hope that as I blog I will be able to muse over past posts and see, by God's grace, flourishing.
SO, future grace. . .Unfortunately, people outside of the Body of Christ are not able to understand that followers of the Lord are not just praying to the air and reading an ancient paper manuscript. If you can't see God, the query, how do you know He is there? My answer? I can see Him everywhere! Creation points to a Creator. Blessings point to a Blesser. But, does that make Him a personal God? I see my Savior in personal ways too. Constantly. For example, for the past 2 years, He has been teaching me to trust and rely on His plan. Some of these lessons happen subtly, and it is not until after the situation is past that I realize God's hand pointing me to His omnipotence; but, for the most part, His present dealings with me and those of the recent past (2 years) starkly show me that He is at work in my life. As far as I am concerned, there is no other explanation for the events (trials and blessings) that I have experienced. In fact, if I did not see Christ through these difficult times in my life, sometimes I do not know how I would go on. There have been times where I have felt like my life is out of control, like nothing is going like it is supposed to. But, thankfully, the truth of God's sovereignty has been come something so very dear to my heart. My life was never out of God's control. Everything is going exactly as it is supposed to. By God's grace, I have also come to realize that if I was in control or life went how I though it was supposed to, I would have a mess of a life. Some of His instruction comes through simple means, for example, putting a particular song in my life.
Oh look, I have a blog. Funny, I tend to forget about my blogs. In 2007, I began one for a school project but only posted for a grade. Later on, I had one for work, but I forgot all about that and never finished whatever it was that I was supposed to blog about on it. Last year, I started this blog, posted twice, and...surprise, let it collect digital dust. Having completed school, I have not had a writing requirement in a several months. But, I love writing. Now that I am free to write on topics of my choice, I decided to log some of my contemplative thoughts again. I am not kidding myself, I doubt anyone on the world wide web really cares to read my ramblings, but that is not why I am writing. By the time I wake up tomorrow morning, I may once again forget that I have virtual document. However, it was encouraging to see my posts of over a year ago and to reflect on what God was doing in my life then, what He has done since then, and what He is doing now in my life. In a way, this is tracking my growth. As a Christian, I certainly hope that I am maturing and developing spiritually. It is entirely too easy to become complacent and become stagnant. All that rambling to say. . .I hope that as I blog I will be able to muse over past posts and see, by God's grace, flourishing.
SO, future grace. . .Unfortunately, people outside of the Body of Christ are not able to understand that followers of the Lord are not just praying to the air and reading an ancient paper manuscript. If you can't see God, the query, how do you know He is there? My answer? I can see Him everywhere! Creation points to a Creator. Blessings point to a Blesser. But, does that make Him a personal God? I see my Savior in personal ways too. Constantly. For example, for the past 2 years, He has been teaching me to trust and rely on His plan. Some of these lessons happen subtly, and it is not until after the situation is past that I realize God's hand pointing me to His omnipotence; but, for the most part, His present dealings with me and those of the recent past (2 years) starkly show me that He is at work in my life. As far as I am concerned, there is no other explanation for the events (trials and blessings) that I have experienced. In fact, if I did not see Christ through these difficult times in my life, sometimes I do not know how I would go on. There have been times where I have felt like my life is out of control, like nothing is going like it is supposed to. But, thankfully, the truth of God's sovereignty has been come something so very dear to my heart. My life was never out of God's control. Everything is going exactly as it is supposed to. By God's grace, I have also come to realize that if I was in control or life went how I though it was supposed to, I would have a mess of a life. Some of His instruction comes through simple means, for example, putting a particular song in my life.
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